I have not start packing yet, at all, because I have had exams for the past week and work for the past two days! Friday I had to go get myself the iPad I wanted a while ago. The service at the Apple store is unbelievably slow because there are so many people but I finally got my hands on an iPad! Now that’s a great replacement for my poor Krissy! I am naming my iPad Krissibelle. Don’t ask.

Finally I am filling it with all of my songs and I will have it to take pictures on my trip! I’m also putting all of my music videos that haven’t been watched much since Krissy’s death, as well as all the new ones I got! Yeah I’m just about to burst Krissibelle! Good thing I’m also taking my netbook with me and my USB so I can always transfer stuff. I will have that netbook to write a daily journal about what goes on!

Here’s a brief overview of what’s going to happen on my trip!

• I am leaving for Shanghai tomorrow with Mei, who is from Shanghai. I’ll be there for 10 days and of course I’m staying with her family who’s so excited to meet her American friend.
• I am going to learn everything about China, okay maybe not haha but I wish! I’m going to see the what the China Pavilion looks like with my own eyes! It’s so sad because if only 2 years earlier I’d be able to see the whole Expo!
• On the 24th I will be going over to Seoul. I am a bit scared for that because I’d be flying all alone! If I get lost then I’d get lost in between two countries neither of the languages I speak.
• I will be staying with my grandparents in their teeny tiny really old apartment because my mom forbade to stay with Arron. This is just gonna suck. But I’ll take whatever I can get.
• My cousin Taejin will be showing me around many places in Korea. Which is a lot less than it sounds because Korea is smaller than New York State. His mom made him do this in return for us letting him stay at our house all the time this year and the next few years he goes to college here.
• I am not sure what’s going to happen about Jeju Island. Mingyun is going to be going home sometime this summer so I’m going to try to plan that trip on a time I can run into him. No, Love Land is not one of my destinations in case anyone wants to know just because my perverted and bubbly best guy friend had to ask.
• I do not have a return ticket because I’ll be flying from back Korea, not China. So I do not know when I’ll come home. I guess I will once I see everything I want to see!
• This is the greatest thousands of $$$ I am going to spend in this lifetime.

I am going to return some last minute comments now – excuse me if they are very abbreviated because I’m running short on time! I won’t be able to blog for a while even though I have my netbook I’d have to find some wi-fi to be able to get online. Maybe you’ll see an update from me on Twitter but sadly no guarantees I’ll even have time to go on. But, I won’t forget anybody, hahaha!

I am estimating to return in July! Goodbye everyone goodbye USA! If only I could say goodbye to the USA forever BWAHAHAHA.

My weekdays have now become class, hanging out with Mei to pass the time in between, then being on my netbook the rest of the time at home to do my homeworks and papers and everything else. Because my weekends have been taken up by my new “workplace” I haven’t really had any free time to go online. But I’m not complaining. I’m having a lot of fun, earning a tiny bit of money, and have better time management with getting my work done.

Classes have ended for me last week, and I have a few exams, one on Tuesday but I am too tired right now to study for it so a little blogging won’t hurt me. I do get 7 hours of sleep at least but I don’t know why I’m still so tired. I kinda am hyper right now which is why I’m still up at 1. I’ve become a morning person after this year of waking up at 5:30.

I absolutely love it at work. The people are far nicer than the last store I worked at. One of my friends actually asked if I spend it flirting with Mingyun, and I was like WTH. We do separate things come on, and I usually talk to the other girls there. Only time I get to hang out with him is after work. I can’t believe I’m actually working in the store I spent many afternoons in last year drooling over all the lovely things. It’s been hard to resist emptying my wallet for them.

I get minimum wage from work now because they actually wanna keep me in case some English-speaking person comes in. Seriously they all speak English but are just so lazy they’d rather pay me to do it. Oh well I’m not complaining, in addition to that they pay for my train and bus fares to get there since it’s pretty far – about 2 hours by train, 1 hour by bus. Don’t ask how the transportation system here works. My mom rather I take the train because she doesn’t want to drive me to the bus station 5 minutes away.

On Saturdays I don’t come home, I stay with Mingyun instead. I was so shocked that my mom was okay with it. Her logic is since I’m in college now and if I went to school in another state I’d be totally independent and she won’t even know what goes on. So even though I still live at home, she doesn’t care what I do anymore. I’m not even sure if that’s good or bad.

Either way, yesterday Mingyun treated me to Korean BBQ. I am really horrible when it comes to food most of the time. But I haven’t had Korean BBQ in a long time and that really opened up my appetite. I kinda still crave it now, hahahahha. Oh, and apparently the waitress thought I was a foreigner because she tried teaching me how to  eat the meat with lettuce. Um, thanks?

I recently found out that two months ago Esprit closed all their stores on this continent. ALL THEIR STORES ON THIS CONTINENT.

I actually cried. Yes, I mean it! When Mia told me about it last weekend, I burst into tears right there. I wasn’t crying because the only store can I go to is gone forever. I wasn’t crying because I can never go shopping anymore. I was crying because this is what fashion has become in North America. Esprit is gone, while Abercrombie, Aeropostale, Forever 21, and all that shit are smooth sailing. I generally like being nice and open-minded but I’m gonna say it right here. Fuck you, American fashion.

I’m not afraid to admit how hard I cried. I cried. Yes I did. I don’t mind if other people shop at the stores I hate since it’s not really my business what other people do. But I was, and still am, so angry about this because it’s like telling me I have to be stuck wearing flare jeans and tank tops from now on. Ever since I found out my cousin totally trolled me about the Molla thing I’ve given up learning Korean and eventually moving so I’m going to be stuck here for the next 30 years until I’m too old to care about fashion. What am I supposed to do, use my trips to Asian countries as shopping sprees?

Just typing this is making me want to cry/scream again. Yes I know it’s over CLOTHES but still.

Anyways as for my life I am now working/volunteering with Mingyun on Saturdays and Sundays at the very same store where we met because a few of their people had to leave for reasons I don’t know. I don’t know how long I’d be doing this either but they mainly just needed people for now. I’m mainly just helping out but I’m getting a stipend and $50 for the weekend. It’s very little but I get to hang out with Mingyun for 2 days a week now!

I know it’s almost exams time for me and a bad time to add something like this that takes out 2 days to my schedule. But I am absolutely tired of my mom nagging me about staying indoors all weekend – I’m staying to do homework come onnn.  Its not that bad actually either, because I made the decision to transfer and can now study at my own pace instead of breaking my neck trying to get A’s for the scholarship. And now my mom can’t complain that I don’t hang out with my friends and stuff.

In case you don’t know / forgot, the store sells a lot of cute little things and expensive clothing. If you’ve ever seen an Asian shop you’d imagine that. I guess working there is kinda like me going online clothes shopping on YesStyle and Zipia. I get to look and drool over all the amazingness but I can’t actually buy anything. Great.

I was listening to this song on repeat at least 100 times while I was in LA. The song has a lot of hope, which made me wanna do something about my life instead of just accepting it the way it is. The very first thing I want to change is my education. I’m sick of spending 12-15 hours a day at the U for 3-4 hours worth of classes. I’m tired of not having time to do anything, time which is given up for the reason of just getting credits. And what am I supposed to do with a degree in sociology? I have no interest in this stuff.

I’ve been thinking of transferring to a school, let’s call it ThatSchool. ThatSchool is a private school, opposite direction from my house as my current school which means TRAINS WILL COME EVERY HALF HOUR INSTEAD OF EVERY TWO! Because it is a private school I might even be able to dorm in tolerable facilities. And though it’s a private school it’s not like those schools who need you to be so unique for an acceptance. Which means with my horrible high school grades, not so horrible later high school grades, above average SAT score, and okay college grades, I might have a shot. They do rolling admissions so I’m thinking of getting my application together as soon as I have time when the semester ends.

I’m not sure what I’d study if and when I transfer, because I don’t seem to have any strong interests apart from animation. I need to find a strong interest such as robots like Stephanie, coding like Georgina, or advertising like Liv. One thing I did want to do when I was younger is become a teacher, but I’ll decide when the time comes. Even if I don’t get an acceptance from ThatSchool there is no way I’m returning to my current school after this semester. I’ll figure something out.

My mom isn’t so happy with my insistence on transferring but my dad was able to convince her somewhat. I know they’re very not proud of me but at least I didn’t get a threat that they won’t pay my tuition. It’s very difficult for me to take out loans because of some personal issues so relying on my parents is really important as of now. If I do transfer to ThatSchool I might have more time and maybe even time for a job. Things would get better, which my dad realized. I guess it’s time for them to realize and accept I’ll never be the perfect child. But I try.

Another thing I want to change about my life is changing the freaking technology I’m stuck with. I see a lot of people on the trains, and they have all that amazing trendy technology and stuff. What do I have, a flippy phone, a small mp3, an old Vista that hardly works, and a 10 inch netbook that I’m already starting to get annoyed at? Well first, since I’m going to China&Korea this summer I need a camera or a at least a camera-phone! I have so much money from my old job I might as well spend some of it.

From a lot of people’s opinions I think I want an iPad. If I were to take that to China&Korea with me, I’d have something to type on for my daily journal, something to take photos with though not great quality, a huge nice music/video player, and games/books to play/read for when I’m dead bored. I think it’ll be worth the money for an all-in-one. That new iPad that came out is only $500 and I don’t even need one that new.

The third thing I want is to own more cats. I currently have my 7-year-old Kimmy, I’m not sure how good it would be if I get more cats plus how my mom would feel, but at least that’s my goal in the future. Cats get thrown on the streets or other horrible things happen if nobody wants them, which is awfuland offering one more cat a home is always a little that I can do. I understand many people hate cats for different reasons but they’re really actually affectionate and not all are solitary. My Kimmy might hate young men but she’s still just so lovable.

Yes I’m a cat lady, but so what? I also have a boyfriend who’s so much more than I would’ve expected at this point with my people skills. Who even started the stereotype of single women being cat ladies?

Who knows, I might not be hardworking or smart but I’m willing to try harder to get what I want.

1. I’m completely guilty of overshopping. LA’s K-town is a lot bigger than K-town New York, at least it seemed like it, and had a variety of stuff that they don’t have here. I couldn’t even bring all my stuff back so I had to leave it in my dad’s place. Knowing him he’ll take years to remember to bring it all back for me.
2. I had a great time hanging out with Daniel though he gave up sleep to hang out with me. Now I feel terrible and wonderful at the same time.
3. It was a lot colder than I expected. I couldn’t wear shorts or sandals because it was especially cold in the morning and at night. I was prepared for a week of summer thanks to all the brainwashing from people in LA like Nancy.
4. Just like with my Seoul trip last year, I didn’t want to come home. Who wants to come home after having a week of fun in an exciting place? No for the last time I don’t live in NYC or near NYC to count as NYC, in case anyone is gonna tell me I live in an exciting place.

Second thing is I forgot to blog about my schedule for the summer. I am leaving for Shanghai on May 24th I think. I’m gonna be there for two weeks with my friend Mei. And then I’m going to Seoul and the rest of Korea for an entire month. I’m going to stay with my grandparents most of the time because my mom said I’m not allowed to stay at my brother’s for that long. My tour guide is none other than my cousin Taejin, who volunteered because he doesn’t have a thing to do this summer. Though I think his mom made him do it after all the free living with us over weekends and school breaks this year. He’ll be taking me to other places in Korea, I think. I’ll be back home in mid-July.

Right now I’m having 2nd thoughts about my tour guide.

One of my commenters brought to my attention the name of my blog. According to my generous volunteering tour guide Molla-ing means “knowing”. But I was just informed by someone from Korea that it means “not knowing.” I feel like a total idiot for either getting the name of my own blog wrong or being actually unaware of what the word means because I can’t speak Korean to save my life. Because for real I’ve never used the word “molla” in a conversation. I can’t even carry a conversation!

My confession right now: When I was going to meet my relatives last summer, my brother had already helped me rehearse my lines, literally.

And I can’t call Taejin a douchebag for purposely telling me the wrong meaning, which I think is likely the case. I have to stay on his good side so he doesn’t call it quits on being my tour guide. Good thing he doesn’t read my blog anymore because he forgot the URL after I kept moving it.

I must befriend a trustworthy native Korean speaker with a standard/Seoul dialect …

This past weekend I “celebrated” my first anniversary with Mingyun. We stayed inside and had ramen, for serious. The candlelit anniversary is so stereotypical, which means it’s not special, which means anniversaries can’t be special. Unless you have a great time and feel it’s special, then it really is.

So for my anniversary Mia had to jokingly make me read My Korean Boyfriend, which is an entertaining blog this Filipina girl named Kring writes, mostly about her boyfriend, who is a Korean-Korean from Seoul. She has good points, because a lot of non-Korean girls are so interested in Korean boys and have a lot of fantasies about getting a Korean boyfriend. Kring pointed out some misconceptions about Koreans which I thought were all SO true. Since I’ve been with Mingyun for a year now I’ll have my own version of What I Learned from Dating a Korean. If any fangirl were to read this hopefully they’ll learn something that’ll stop their dreaming of having a Korean drama relationship.

1. Not all Korean boys are angelic. This is THE MOST IMPORTANT THING EVER! And luckily for me I was never dreaming of dating a Korean at all so I knew this before my relationship. The media depicts Korean boys as flawless people with clear white milky skin. Guess what celebrities take care of their skin for the camera, and yes they do use facial masks. And you can’t even guess how many people who aren’t even celebrities have had plastic surgery. They all contribute to the stereotype of angelic boys.

One jerk asked me, has Mingyun had plastic surgery? No, he hasn’t dammit, for anyone who’s nosy and interested. He still managed to make my heart flutter when he first spoke to me, yes I know I’m a cheesy person and no matter how much I stress I’m not looking for relationships I still am shy around cute guys. And you don’t have to be good looking to be cute. Which brings me to my next point.

2. Koreans are very obsessed with image. A Korean guy wouldn’t be caught dead in a t-shirt and shorts. Okay maybe I’m exaggerating a tiny bit, but Koreans are very conscious about their looks, even guys, which is why my brother calls them gay. Someone once said I’m so vain for washing my hair every day and always making sure I look presentable when I go out even if just to the library. As an American I know many people just wear whatever in a casual situation but what’s so wrong about wanting to look as best as possible? For the record I never even wear makeup. I just want to go out and look clean and nice.

Yes, the stereotype of Koreans having good fashion is true. How to dress Korean for girls? Show your legs as much as you want but your top must be completely covered. No cleavage allowed. I’m not exaggerating this time.

3. You don’t have to have aegyo (cuteness) to attract a Korean guy. You don’t have to call them oh-pahhhhh. You don’t have to pout nonstop. Yes most Korean guys want the cutest girls ever but it’s just the another stereotype, just like the stereotype of American guys only thinking of sex. I hardly call Mingyun by oppa, and though my reason is because he can’t not laugh about how my pronunciation is so off. But certainly Korean guys wouldn’t be as interested in a wild crazy bungee-jumping girl. Being a little conservative is a good thing.

4. Language barriers aren’t so bad. I used to wonder how interracial babies like myself come to being when two people can’t even talk to each other. My mom isn’t a great example because her English is pretty good even with a Konglish accent, but I’ve known people whose mothers speak English like Kevjumba’s dad. But when you like somebody or even before that and just want to get to know them, language doesn’t matter. You’d want to try to make the effort. I have no problem with Mingyun’s Konglish accent now and he rarely has trouble with my American accent. He’s learned a lot of slang from me too so that’s no problem either.

5. Dating a Korean is way different from dating an American. Obviously. If you are dating one in the USA they might adapt to some American habits, it doesn’t mean their native culture dies. A Korean guy doesn’t carry your bag for you, and no it’s not rude it’s just how they were raised. Unfortunately they are raised in the way that men are above women but that doesn’t mean you’re their servant. A Korean guy wouldn’t cheesily say I love you, because to them the word love is not ridiculous like in English. I could go on about Korean guys not being obsessed with the physical stuff, but I won’t because I’d get into the American stereotype about sex.

This is only compiled from my own experience and maybe if you end up dating a mainland Korean from Seoul or Busan it might be different from my relationship. Either way, people shouldn’t be looking for Korean boyfriends just because the media makes them look perfect and needing perfect girlfriends. THE MEDIA IS NEVER TRUE. Look at Mean Girls or 17 Again. I’ve never heard of high schools that crazy. The media in any culture makes everything so dramatic because without it, media would be boring.

As for my life it really hasn’t gotten any better. I don’t have class tomorrow though so I have a little more than a week of spring break ahead of me. I’ll be on vacation in LA for most of it so maybe it’ll be a good time to clear my head and think about what I want to do with my life. I gave my blog a quick fresh look featuring a few beautiful pics of beautiful Korean fashion. I am in need of new clothing again which I’ll stock up on if and when I go to Korea in the summer. Since the loss of Photoshop I wasn’t able to mutilate this theme creatively though it looks nothing like the original theme as usual.

I’m not too sure if I’ll get to blog again before I leave for LA since I really do need to get all my homework done before I do. There are two things I do want to talk about, though usually I do try to keep my blog entries to a single topic.

First.

Do you watch American Idol? I don’t, ew. But my mom does because she likes looking at untalented/weird Americans try so hard to impress the country and fail because it is vote based and some people purposely vote for the worst ones. I must admit I’ve been one of them in the past. However this season there was a Korean contestant, Han Heejun, who was eliminated just tonight. His hometown is Flushing, New York, which isn’t far from where I live. According to my mom he’s representing the Korean population of my area. She doesn’t like him because well he’s Korean and not an impressive one in her eyes.

I don’t think he’s so great either. Forget that he’s not “cute” as people expect of all Korean guys – not all Korean guys are cute and I don’t judge people based on their looks. But Han Heejun has horrible hair, horrible fashion. On top of that he’s not that great of a singer either. I’ve seen far too many amazing Korean singers who can also present themselves well. I don’t have anything against Heejun, but just an example, that grid shirt and that beanie he’s wearing … well I’m not impressed. Isn’t a celebrity supposed to impress his audience? If he doesn’t impress with his vocals he should impress with his style. His stage personality is also weird – he called the Americans in Hollywood beautiful, like he’s never seen one before.

Second.

Since I don’t have class tomorrow I’m going to see Mingyun and we’re sorta gonna celebrate our first anniversary. If we have one that is. Many people like some of my so-called friends celebrate an anniversary every MONTH. They literally make monthly gifts for their boyfriends. Doesn’t anniversary must mean yearly? If Mingyun and I were to celebrate every month then celebrating monthversaries would be the only thing we do.

Many people do that 03/29/12 thing. A friend said that Mingyun lucked out because his girlfriend can’t even remember the day they got together. But my question is, how do you decide the day you started being together? Is the first date or first kiss supposed to mean something? Back in high school it was the day I got asked out by ThatGuy. But I’ve grown up since then and to be honest 100% Mingyun never “asked me out.”

Bwahahaha life is full of confusion. Ohh well I’m too excited for LA to sleep no matter how stressed/tired I am right now.

I spent all day on my paper while my mom was pissed that I didn’t make it to my brother’s birthday. Oh whatever, it’s not like my dad made it either. I still need to buy Jason a present, which I’ll need to find time to do. I think putting myself in a stricter and robotic routine would make life a whole lot easier at a time like this. That means making Saturdays a non school-related day if I can help it. Weekends like this when I have something huge due it’s obviously not going to work but most of the time with a little time management and planning I think I can have Saturdays off. Enough to devote divide my time among things that need my attention, mostly Mingyun and Molla of course. Yes I know I’m kinda cheesy.

I’m really excited about my spring break trip to LA, which I now know will be the 3rd to the 8th. Traveling will probably take up most of a day so I really only have 4 days there. I just hope I don’t have a lot of work over spring break because I won’t have much time at home. I really shouldn’t go, but there’s no way I’m settling for being stuck home for spring break.

Other than going places with my parents or staying at my dad’s place, I’m going to visit my best friend Daniel. We haven’t properly hung out in ages because he goes to school in LA and his parents are too cheap to let him come home for Thanksgiving and spring break. He went abroad last summer and I hardly got to see him this past winter break as well. He hates it in LA so hopefully a school closer to home will accept him soon as a transfer. Though his spring break isn’t the same as mine he’s taking a little time out of his schedule to spend a day with me. Just thinking about this trip makes me so nostalgic for the past.

Remember that project Georgina had a few months ago? I wrote one, and totally would write about how much I love my best guy friend as well, but society tends to look down upon that.

I met Daniel when I was in high school, because he didn’t live in my town but his town’s students eventually attended the high school in my town. So, I’ve really only known him for barely 6 years and he wasn’t my best friend for all that time, but he’s definitely someone with a great personality who I’m so happy to have gotten so close to. Having a guy best friend is very different from having a girl best friend, obviously. In media I think they always make it a trio and make it seem like a common thing, but that’s not how it is at all. I have had a girl best friend for almost 12 years and she’ll forever be my best friend forever. I also have a guy best friend, who is more like a brother than anything.

With Daniel, I never have to worry about lonely gaming. He’s an intense gamer, and he’s willing to play the games that don’t scare little-girl me, unlike my real brother who would just call them gay. Daniel is also a K-pop fan, he’s the one who got me into K-pop and Asian pop culture in the first place. He’s awesome at Korean hip-hop/popping dance whatever the proper term is. Though we won’t be able to game when I’m in LA, and I doubt he’d be able to teach me a new dance and watch me fail, there’s still lots of other stuff we can do outdoors. The most likely thing we’ll go for is karaoke. He’s the only one with the same music interests as me so I can’t miss that.

Having a guy best friend does have a … I wouldn’t call it a downside, but it’s definitely something you won’t encounter with a girl best friend. For example I can’t write a blog for Georgina’s I Love project without it stirring rumors and issues and other crap. If English wasn’t so stupid about the word love then we wouldn’t have this problem. Look at this post for more information so I don’t have to rant about it.

Related to that problem, when you have a guy best friend sometimes people think you’re a couple. I can remember the countless times in high school when people thought I was going out with Daniel even if I had another uh … wouldn’t call him a boyfriend but almost boyfriend. Also, for some reason it becomes not okay to text your guy best friend. His girlfriend back then certainly had a problem with it and I’m understanding as to why, but my whole point, this wouldn’t happen when it’s a girl best friend.

Lastly, having a guy best friend will expose your mind to … stuff. Because boys just can’t help themselves. So no matter how prude-y I seem, I’ve heard my fair share of graphical stories so if you write about something perverted it’s gonna scare me more that you wrote about it than the actual content would.

At least, that’s my experience with having a guy best friend. It would be greater if people’s natures weren’t so sexist about guys and girls being close without being in a relationship.

Of course, I can resort to my netbook at home but nowadays tiny screen is starting to give me a headache if I use it too much. Plus I can’t install anything in it since I heard it’ll be really slow. Still, life goes on.

One important thing I did lose over the format is Photoshop CS3. NOOOO WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITHOUT IT?! It puts a halt on my fanlistings of course as well as this new website I’ve been trying to make. My brother’s roommate was the one who gave me the installation in the first place, and at the moment I can’t ask him for the program. Why not?

Well, next Wednesday is Jason’s birthday, and apparently there was going to be a dinner for it this Saturday. I also happen to have a paper due that afternoon, which I haven’t started. I should’ve done it last weekend right? Well since no one bothered to tell me about the dinner until yesterday, I already spent last weekend with Mingyun. Now because I won’t be able to attend my brother’s dinner out of “selfishness” and “disorganization,” he’s not allowed to do me any favors¹ anymore. My brother is a mommy’s boy at age almost 22 so he listens to orders like a puppy.

So, what is favoritism?

Because I’m the youngest child, people always say “Oh Kris you’re so spoiled.” I’ve decided to just hate people who think the youngest child is the favorite. For your information I’ve never been spoiled in my life. I never get better things if I have a working one – for example I don’t have a smartphone because my flippy phone “works fine.” I hardly even get things in the first place apart from my birthday and Christmas. My dad only buys me technology products now and then because he keeps missing either my birthday or Christmas and just piles the cost into one present. And for God’s sake my mom has a problem half the time with me buying CDs or clothes with my OWN money.

Meanwhile, my brother Jason gets to live in an apartment in New York, go to graduate school without having a job at the same time, and he’s had an iPhone since he left for college 4 years ago. From that logic I should have gotten an iPhone last fall right? iPhones are free dammit. But no, because I go to school so nearby I don’t need an iPhone, whatever that’s supposed to mean. However, you can argue that the things he got is the “necessity.” Yeah, maybe but I doubt if I ask for an apartment my mom would pay for it for me. In English translation, it’s because I’m not “perfect” so I don’t get special treatment.

My brother is perfect. He’s smart, gets good grades, always been at the top of his class. He’s a trend follower with “good taste,” has a lovely parents-approved girlfriend, thinks Korean guys are gay, and in every way is the perfect son for my mom.

If I ever get to be a mother² I’d love all my children equally. Even if one of them turns out to wear flare jeans and Ugg boots and puts her hair in messy buns, I’d still love her as much as I’d love any other of my children. They’re my children not my clones, so I don’t expect them to be the same as me. As long as they try even if they don’t get Ivy-League needed grades it would still be okay. I don’t need to use my children to brag.

So in my case, my mom always takes Jason’s side, even in this lame situation. My brother didn’t even make such a huge deal about me being at his dinner or not. But since he came all the way from New York for my birthday last month, I now don’t deserve anything from him. Do you understand this? I don’t.

Anyways, I’m thinking about simplifying things and moving my blog to Tumblr. I’ve only logged in WordPress twice for the past month, last time I had 38 trackbacks and this time I have 28. I really don’t want another account with the whole Akismet deal. Lately I’ve seen a lot of people use Disqus or some other comment system on WordPress anyway. Maybe Tumblr will be less upkeep since I won’t need to beat myself to make the 2-month-update rule with my host. What do you think about a Tumblr blog?

What have I done the past few weeks:

• Got my hair done. It is now yet another different shade of brown, lighter than the one I had before. I’ve grown my hair longer again as well and am going for something like the Nana look. I feel that hairstyle is more mature. I’m tired of people asking if I’m 16 years old.
• Got myself a new 4G Coby Video MP3 player. It’s a much better replacement for my 2GB Sandisk MP3. Now I can finally watch my music videos on the go again. I still have to shuffle around all my music though because I have like 2000 songs. I miss my iPod touch or really would like an iRiver but I couldn’t afford them.

What I’ve gotten from giving up the internet:

• My new netbook has been a big help in lectures and waits for class/train. It’s almost become my new main computer because it’s so much faster than my laptop. I’ve been able to get homework done in school.
• This means I get to go to bed after dinner and chores. 7 hours of sleep a night is quite sweet.
• This also means I’ve been able to free up Saturdays, which means some Skyping with Mingyun. One time we IM’ed for 8 hours straight . The last time I IM’ed for so long was …ages ago. And I finally got to see him again this past weekend in the lovely weather. I haven’t seen him since Lunar New Year’s which was more than a month ago. We went to the noodle shop where we had our first “eat together after work.” Bahahahha I’m silly.

Another way of putting it is that for the past month I pretty much traded my lovable internet life for 7 hours of sleep a night and time with my boyfriend. It’s a good trade I suppose but I still feel so awful I’m already at the point in my life where I give up internet. Most people don’t do that until they get a job and family.

Will I be back to blogging regularly? I dunno. I’m going to try to blog at least on my free Saturdays but usually I’m so distracted. I realize I cannot manage both a boyfriend and internet life.

I also have a lot of plans coming up:

• I’m going to LA for spring break in April. My mom decided she wants to see if LA is better than here since my dad is there most of the time. She offered me to go with so how could I say no? I’d say yes to anything dealing with getting out of this boring place.
• In late May I’m going to Shanghai, China with Mei. I’ll be there for about a week. My mom couldn’t say no because I responsibly am paying for this trip myself. This is my last chance to travel until I graduate so I might as well spend some of the money I saved up from work.
• Which means since I’m already on that side of the world, I’ll be spending another month or so in Korea. I’m going to have the Korea trip I’ve been dreaming of for the past few years. I’m gonna stalk Mir until I get a restraining order. I have no idea where I’d stay since I don’t want to intrude on my brother again, but since most of Korea is centered around Seoul I can probably stay with my grandparents since they don’t live too far away. And if I get a chance to go to Jeju with Mingyun I will.

I honestly am not going to have a healthy internet life coming up, but if things go according to plan I will be the happiest Kris ever.